Zero Gravity

Somehow, I feel that among the people who excel academically, they have at least one of the three if not all. One, a brain like Jimmy Neutron's and a photographic memory. Two, resilience. Three, passion for studying. Well, I think 2 works the best on most people I guess. But it's definitely the hardest way out. Not having 1 and 3, it's best that I should start working on 2 but oh god, here I'm, desperately crying out to the lords to find a motivation for me to start all the information jamming.

It has been 5 bloody hours. And I'm not even close to half done due to all the distractions. Disheartened, I came online, hoping to find motivation from others' progress. But to no avail cause apparently, we all succumbed to distractions.

Time and again, I question: What's the point of cramming such useless information into our heads, something that we will only use to get to the next level, and after that, it goes promptly into the "recycle bin"? But I have never found an answer, what I always get is something along "Hey there's no choice, it's the only route out. Come on you can do it!". But the thing is how to do it when you can't even get why you're doing it. And neither have I found other means to get to where I want to be in a less torturous, more meaningful way.

Unfortunately, it's a almost like a fact that no matter how hard we study here, we might just be able to get into one of the top local colleges and then into a local Uni or maybe an Aussie one, which is nothing, if compared to Yale, Oxford or Berkeley. And there we are again, out in the working world, under those with a better cert, in this continuous cycle again, slogging our guts out to get our cars and houses. I don't see LIGHT in the future. At all.

Gaahh, I should continue with my Senna's documentary.

In frustration,
J.