I

LOVE

ALL MY FRIENDS

SO VERY MUCH!!!

;)

I cannot imagine life w/o you guys.

But I'm sure it would have been hell.

To you who think that I have lost the ability to think straight.

For sure, he does not deserve this. He does not for a thousand times and over. He paid the consequence of the negligence of somebody else. Yes, nobody wanted this, but who dare to say all of this would still have happened if they were careful enough? It was an accident that could have been prevented.

I wish I was more of a forgiving person. But to the obvious murderer, I can't help from feeling vengeful. I'm not a saint.

You might think that it's incomprehensible and exaggerating to be so affected by someone not in your life but only appears on TV. But he's not just someone or anyone to me. He means a whole lot more. It might seemed like an easy thing for you, seeing one less driver on track. But it is not for me and it will never be because I might never get to see him on track again. Don't tell me of all the postive reports, much as I would like to believe in them, we all know deep inside how hard it would be to get him racing again. And trust my wishful thinking that he will be back @ Valencia next month.

And I really appreciate all of you who are so considerate and sensitive even though I know you all don't understand this, I really do. I'm very lucky to have all of you. And today I was selfish to have pour out all my negative feelings and spoil the day. I will be fine tomorrow. :):):)

Forza Felipe, Siamo Con Te.

Forza Felipe, Siamo Con Te.

Please genuinely pray for Massa if you see this. He has to pull through. He is the only champion I see and if he's not racing anymore, F1 will be pointless.

I swear Rubens Barrichello and Brawn GP is going to pay dearly!!!!!!!!!!!! They're such bastards and beasts that no word in the dictionary can speak better of them.















http://www.cbssports.com/autoracing/story/11990980

You'll never walk alone.

Oh man, I love crabs and any edible crustaceans!!!

Missed Sat's qualifying because I was out having dinner @ East Coast. And CX texted that Massa sustained concussion and a fractured skull from a crash. Seriously, what could have been worse? F U BRAWN!!! You guys are so awesome you have objects flying out of your cars.

Horrible weekend for F1, or at least for Massa, Vettel and Alonso. Hopefully, Massa can race again in Europe if not it will be pointless to watch.

And yes KOP in SG. FERNANDO TORRES forever!!!!!
I've Arsenal jersey in my closet so he's the only reason why I'm watching. He's going to challenge Ronaldo in the upcoming premier league. :):):)

I should be asleep now.

When the wind blows...

Rainy days make me moody, depressed and anti-social. Thanks for trying to cheer me up guys. Sorry if I didn't quite answer your concerns. Because nothing is wrong, I mean nothing really happened. I don't know how to put it in words, but everything just feels bad.

Realised a couple of things. Two-faced hypocrites, aren't they horrid? And sadly, the world is full of such people. Maybe I'm one too at some point. I don't know, but I'm taken aback at how cruel people can be. Apparently. Fortunately, have not expreienced it, but witnessing it has quite big of an impact anyway. How do you tell if people are true? That's just proved to be the hardest.

Ahhh pardon me, I'm just so sick and tired of everything, bewildered by life.

Anyway, this week in a nutshell:
1. Racial Harmony Day Celebration (Da Bomb!!! Pictures below, the rest are up on FB.)
2. Harry Potter w/ SW (I'm know I'm a week late.)
3. Hanging out @ O'Briens4. CleoPoh's Sweet 16th!!! (24/07)










Esme, Falee and Christina look damn cute!!!





Aren't their costumes just prettyae??? :):):)

The effect on film is awesome!!!

I shall continue digging out old dvds to watch. Nights.

Just reached home after catching HP to find 5 messages in my inbox about all the geog stuff due tomorrow. And there's a nat veg test.

Wtf. I'm gg to bed.

P.S. It has been so long, I miss Chuck & Blair!!! Right Geetha????


Sat
Went to the tailor's with Serena + Family dinner.
You know, Holland Village is a lovely place, but the people there just ain't that lovely.

Filthy rich, that's what you are. But you'll never know how that LV bag and those big studded diamond rings look so cheap on you.

Sun
Parents were annoyed because both my brother and i refused to go out for dinner. We stayed home to watch Goblet of Fire for 4 hrs. It's a good thing, watching it on TV because watching it on DVD means massive fast-forward. And I still can't get over why Cedric died every time I watch it. Hahaha they say it's because RP has to take on his role in Twilight. Wth time difference???

Mon
Out with my aunts and cousin after school for lunch. My cousin joked and we laughed a lot basically. And I swear Mango Sago w/ Pamaelo + Ice Cream is the most heavenly yet inexpensive dessert on Mother Earth. Like which genius created that?? I'll kowtow to you.

Came home and talked on the phone w/ Nicole and Lisa for long. :):):)

My life has been so awesome recently, it couldn't have been better.

It's Racial Harmony Day tomorrow and it just spells fun even though we'll be lugging around with heavy costumes. HAHAHAHA!!!

MJ

COOL. AWESOME. SPLENDID. WTV.

Pictures from themaltesemuse@bs

Typical Getting-Back-Results Day

Can't get any worse of course.

The only thing I'm proud of is my 20/25 for WR. I least expected it because I gave up Lit for Chem. This year has proved to be the great depression for my lit grades and finally I'm seeing light at the end of the dark tunnel. But then again, what's the use when Paper 2 is so badly done. Ahh, I miss MdmKala.

Chem and A-Math failed me the most. For the mere last 2 days I spent studying for Chem, I guess I'm already getting the best I can get out of it even though the grade looks rather horribly disgusting. But A-Maths was certainly disappointing, I have never worked harder for any other subjects.

No matter what, I'm glad I've long gotten over being negative over results and stuff. And I realised that I do not belong to the "intelligent" group because I've known of many who can still do well without putting in half the effort and many who might not be doing well simply because they didn't put in any effort. But we can't choose who we are right? I mean that's the cruel truth, but there's nothing to be upset about. So working hard is the best and only way out.

Thanks * for making me realise that and keeping me motivated. :):):)

Nurburgring

The greatest joy of being a Formula One fan is watching 2 of your favourite drivers on the podium. Nothing beats that.

Sebastian Vettel 2nd

Felipe Massa 3rd

The only regret was that Vettel failed to claim victory for his home race. A 1-2 (Vettel-Massa) would have been the best I could ever have asked for. But I'm contented, this is the best race so far and it seems as if everything race is getting better.

Btw, the commentator was really comical today.

Webber, who has been so used to being the bridesmaid for 8 years, finally became the bride today!!! HAHAHAH. Reminds you of 27 dresses, no?

P.S. And Alonso is staying in Renault!!! Hip Hip Hooray!!! It's perfect for everybody.

Saturated w/ Happiness.

Perfect week comes with perfect meals with the perfect people.

Wed-
Met my aunts and cousins for lunch at HK Cafe. The food was horrible somehow. But I laughed so hard that I banged the table and my stomach hurt like crap. Omg the scene was horrible. My cousin is really the #1 joker.

Thurs- Kh!!

Fri-
Lessons ended at 12.30pm so we took off straight after the bell rang.
Most embarrassing thing:
6 of us had 9 plates of sushi and left the restaurant.
Biggest achievement:
Making CX and SP's facebook password known to the whole world.
HAHAHAHA!
Met Alex, talked, walked around and it was great.

I realised many read this space w/o commenting. Aww, I still love you guys!!! :) :) :)
And Yingying, because we both love the same people. Ha, great minds think alike.

P.S. I can't wait for the Germany race this weekend! Vettel needs and must win!!!



I miss my cousin and I'm gg to meet her tomorrow. :):):)

Yaye, everything has been so perfect.

It's goodbye forever now, MJ.

You influenced me from long, long ago, when I was barely a kid. But I never knew about your impact. I wish I had realised you earlier, way earlier than now. I wish I was not too eager about growing up and chasing the billboard charts. I wish that your death was not the cause of the world digging out your old records today. But the cruel truth stands unmistakably in front of our faces.

I cried while watching the memorial, only because of what his daugher said. Yes, Brooke Shields and many others were touching in their speech but where were they during his scandal days? Nobody, could have been more true to him than his own children. He raised them with all his love and everything he had. Even if you don't acknowledge his music, you cannot deny that he was a great father.

Got Essential MJ today and I'm gg to listen to it over and over again.

Day 01

It feels as if school just started today. It's weird but I kinda miss school, I mean everybody at school! It's awesome to be back. And Mr Loh's back too!!! He's the best Math teacher ever.

I feel very empty on weekends w/o F1. I miss watching Massa and Vettel on the circuit and screaming for them. It has been long. But not to worry, the next race will be held this weekend- Nurburgring, Germany. One of my most anticipated races of the year other than Sg and Brazil because it's Vettel's home race!!! I hope he can claim victory for this race because that would be the best 22nd birthday present for him. (He celebrated his 22nd on 0307) :) :) :)

Swensens has hit its worst. Never mind about the 1hr waiting + queueing time, the food was horriblexz. Only the apple crumble and fries were of their usual standard. Awww why??? :(

P.S. I don't wish to comment on oral.

Top 10 Fav On-Screen Females

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From Abigail, view her list @ bellsofdecember.livejournal.com/51895.html#cutid1.

:):):) It took me long to come up with my top 10. And whatever I describe them here with my limited vocabulary will not justify their beauty and amazing character in real.

#10 Freida Pinto
(Slumdog Millionaire)



An exotic beauty, definitely.

#9-Katy Perry



She looks like a live Barbie doll, don't you reckon? Other than her catchy tunes, I like her quirky fashion sense. She don't define herself as any one kind, which I think is what fashion is all about.

#8 김소은 Kim So Eun
(BOF)




She is the only Korean actress I know of that has not gone under the knife, not that i know of many, but still.. Yes, she does not have the perfect features or the drop-dead gorgeous kind of look, but I think being natural and being proud of who you really are is the prettiest you can and will ever be.

#7 Hayden Panettiere
(Heroes)





I'm not a fan of Heroes but she caught my eye on the cover of an old T.V issue. All-American Beauty, she really deserves that title. Everything about her is just like the sun, you just feel so happy and warm looking at her. :)

#6- Linda Chung
(Heart of Greed, A Journey Called Life etc)




Your perfect Girl-Next-Door. I don't take a fancy on girly girls so Kim So Eun and Linda Chung are probably exceptions. Because they're natural, they always look good with or without make-up, like as if beauty is inside them.

# 5- Charmaine Sheh
(Forensic Heroes 2, The Drive Of Life etc)





I love her in Forensic Heroes 2!!! I chose her over Linda Chung because of that role. Furthermore, she's an amazing actress, she'll never let you feel the same about the characters played be her, all they have in common is the same face.

#4 Ali Michael



She has walked so many shows for the biggest brands in the industry. Yes, she might not be your Kate Moss or wtv but she's my fav. Because she's the only model that will tell you, if modeling means you have to need to be a bag of bones, she'd rather quit. She loves modeling, but she cherishes her life even more. I think that's very respectable and smart of her, some of those top models just don't seemed to be realising that. Size to define beauty has been deemed wrong since long ago, but they are the ones fueling this wrong perception, allowing it to continue haunting the industry.

#3 Emma Charlotte Watson
(Harry Potter)





2 things I like about her: Her character and Hermione Granger
So what if she has shot to fame?? She leads her life like anyone of us. No drugs, no messed up social life, no airs, nothing.
Brains, character, attitude, looks, she has them all. :):):)

#2 Keira Christina Knightley
(Pirates of the Caribbean/ Pride and Prejudice etc.)





She's my fav Chanel girl!!!! She's just one word: Perfect.

#1 Anne Jacqueline Hathaway
(Princess Diaries, Devil Wears Prada, Get Smart etc)



I had the hardest time choosing my top 3. Finally, I decided on A.H simply because she is not perfect. Girl-next-door, Elegant/Classy, Mysterious/Cool, you can classify her under all of them. She may not be the prettiest star out there, but she's undefinable and both "girl" and "guy" pretty. And maybe because she's not perfect, she looks way more approachable, as if like someone close to the heart.

I stayed up all night. The sky is bright again now! But it's not yet sun rise yet, I shall wait to catch it. I love sunrise!!! :):):)

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Thanks SW for accompanying me the entire night. Too bad tickets for Transformers were sold-out. Still have yet to catch it, arghhh. Nevertheless, shopping + dinner was just awesome. It has been very long since we talked about anything and everything under the sun.

P.S/ 5-inches platform heels are to kill seriously!!!! We saw a pair that we both love very much today!!!! Omg I swear I'm gg to get a pair and master the art of walking in them.

Here's another pretty one:

On Strange Days

Yes, MYEs are over.

But I'm not feeling as relieved as I thought I would be or should be. I didn't work hard, or as hard for this exam so maybe that's the reason why. Whatever it is, I'm glad it's over, though the worst has yet to come.

Aston's+Bowling+Shopping w/ Nicole and MY. Bad day for bowling, I held very lousy scores.
Sg's entertainment is really limited. Wait till Universal Studios, the entire Sg will flock there.

Weien is pulling me into NYC Prep => Real-live Chuck Bass/ Serena Van Der Woodsen? No, never, I rather that one played by Ed.

Geee, I won't be around in school tomorrow. I should ought to get a swim, it has sure been long. In any case, that is anytime better than 3 hrs of motivational talk. :)

Ha Jae Kyung + Goo Jun Pyo!!! No, sorry I don't like Jandi.

Stop Existing and Start Living

A-Math was horrible!!!!

Oh rather, I'm the horrible one, maybe my mom's right, I'm obtuse. She had a hard time explaining Physics to me yesterday and both of us were really losing patience with every minute. Maybe that's why they never have too high of an expectation of me.

Freedom, I always have too much of it. I can daringly return home at 2am, with everybody sleeping soundly, what's there to fear? I can get out of the hotel at 6am in a foreign country and roam the streets alone, they wouldn't care. Actually, they would, if i miss the flight home.

Long long time ago, when everybody was worried that they would get canned or something for getting like 5/10 for spelling, I never had to. When everybody was crying because they were so fearful of their punishments, I was crying because I couldn't prove that I could do it. At times, I felt so odd that I even lied about how scared I was getting punishments similar to theirs. How pathetic right. I hate it when people envy me about how my parents wouldn't do anything to me. Because whether I do well or not, nothing changes. Punishments/rewards you get them all, I don't neither.

Yes, they always believe that hitting, scolding won't work and I agree with that. Maybe, I'm just making a mountain out of a molehill. Maybe, that's just bliss.

The reason why I refused tuition and all that, apart from the fact that I hate being in an enclosed room with a stranger who stares at me while I work on assessment books for continuously 2 hours, only occasionally talking if I have a doubt, is that I want to prove that I can do it on my own, that good grades can be achieved based on me, me and me myself, that maybe, I'm worthy of expectations.

Hahaha please don't look at me like I'm a psycho after reading this! I have decided that everything I do now will only be for myself. Since I'm in such an advantage position, without the burden of disappointing anyone, I will only need to be responsible for myself. :) That's great.

And actually, to say that my parents don't care for me, is not fair and will only be seemed sensible maybe ten years ago? Maybe not very much, but they do. Nobody is perfect. And there's some quote saying that if you want to find a perfect person to love, you won't have time to love at all and you'll miss all your loved ones around you.

And so is Michael Jackson. He's the King of Pop, but he's not perfect. For things he might have done, or might not, we wouldn't know. But for all the encouraging and lovely songs from him, are always there for the world to see. They're 100% absolutely true. And someone who can produce such pieces couldn't be that bad. I was never really a big fan of him, but I realised I have been listening to his songs since I was really really young. When I heard it on 987 this morning, the lyrics and everything just came so naturally like as if I have heard it a million times. It just felt so familiar even after so many donkey years. That's the impact of his music.