Zero Gravity

To you who think that I have lost the ability to think straight.

For sure, he does not deserve this. He does not for a thousand times and over. He paid the consequence of the negligence of somebody else. Yes, nobody wanted this, but who dare to say all of this would still have happened if they were careful enough? It was an accident that could have been prevented.

I wish I was more of a forgiving person. But to the obvious murderer, I can't help from feeling vengeful. I'm not a saint.

You might think that it's incomprehensible and exaggerating to be so affected by someone not in your life but only appears on TV. But he's not just someone or anyone to me. He means a whole lot more. It might seemed like an easy thing for you, seeing one less driver on track. But it is not for me and it will never be because I might never get to see him on track again. Don't tell me of all the postive reports, much as I would like to believe in them, we all know deep inside how hard it would be to get him racing again. And trust my wishful thinking that he will be back @ Valencia next month.

And I really appreciate all of you who are so considerate and sensitive even though I know you all don't understand this, I really do. I'm very lucky to have all of you. And today I was selfish to have pour out all my negative feelings and spoil the day. I will be fine tomorrow. :):):)